Friday morning, my new firm sent me flowers. They are huge, exotic and colourful. Right now, they sit cheerfully in my upstairs bedroom and when I look at them, I marvel. These are flowers from my new firm. The downtown firm that hired me to work after law school. The law school from which I am one year away from graduating. In the very urban, metropolitan city where there is always something fun to do and new to explore.
For the past eight years of my life, everything I've done has been focused on the long term. I got used to putting aside short term happiness and goals for longer term plans. Now the things I've been focusing on forever: a law degree, a legal career, an urban lifestyle, are so close that I can nearly touch them. But embracing the fruits of my labor has been surprisingly hard. I didn't think I would feel so unworthy. I didn't think all these changes in my life would feel so random and unplanned. I know how to do sacrifice but I don't know how to do success.
Monster has been the one who has believed all along. He is so happy for all the good that's come, but not surprised by it. He constantly tells me how proud he is of me, how hard I've worked and how I deserve these good things.
I process my good fortune through him.
2 comments:
It's all VERY well deserved!
Love your hair by the way.
I'm just now catching up on reading my favorite blogs - yours included. I feel so excited for you. You certainly have earned this!
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