An overachiever learns to breathe out!

Since deciding to expand the goals in my life, I have been working towards a degree. My bachelor's did not come easy: I changed majors twice, changed schools three times. Not to mention the ocean that I crossed in search of enlightment. During each day of my undergraduate experience, one thing has remained the same: I have always tried really, REALLY hard to do the best, get the best grade. So, now I am in a situation where I STILL am attempting to improve my grades, this time with the LSAT, but it feels different. It feels less, well, noble and more...optional. Yes, getting my first degree was optional, too, but somehow I thought I would have more of a rush having received it. I thought it may validate my other pursuits, my other goals, like Legos stacking on top of one another.
But instead, through all the research and prep I have done to get myself to law school, I bemoan the fact that I am not there ALREADY! I am wasting valuable years of my life when I should be out there, preparation-less but perhaps just as ready.
Okay, enough stream of consciousness.