I got my college diploma today...after weeks of calling and checking and stuttering and taking abuse from the UT registrar. Got some bad news about work, too, but still hopeful. I know there are so many others that have it so much worse than I.
What does the future hold? When I first returned from Africa, I kept a journal (pre-blog) about my new "adventure": trying to find my roots again. I was looking (pretty unsuccessfully) for a job after being out of the workforce for six years, I was re-adjusting to life in North America and looking for what's next. For some reason, I was thinking that would be the last time I would be that lost. In some ways, that's true but...there is something magical in not knowing what is coming next; all the possibilities of the future.
Back then, I wrote in my journal that I wished I could "fast forward" in my life a few months, to the point where I was employed, fulfilled, on to the next step. I just wanted to skip the insecurity, the unknown, the humiliation of being so lost. But, here I am again, one degree and husband richer, more settled into myself than I was in my mid-twenties. And still there is so much unknown.
I am nervous and afraid but also curious to see what will happen next...
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