Today is one of those days when I feel I have no answers. Am I doing the right thing? Am I succeeding? Today, I cannot answer those questions. It all began when I missed my stylist appointment and had to wear my hair up ten days in a row. Soon, I was sporting a style only favored by Olive Oil and let's just say I don't exactly rock it.
Next, I came to work this morning with cotton between my ears where my brain should be and had to be so careful not to mess up my decisions. Next, I went to a new workout class at the gym, and the instructor was just awful: all 80's style with quick, jerky movements. For someone who focuses on form in order to relax (yes, I am THAT type-A) it was unsettling and very soon I felt pain in my right knee and just walked out of class.
Today was a day where I felt I was spinning my wheels, unable to get anywhere. I moved to Canada to get closer to my sisters. Am I closer to them emotionally? It's hard to say. I started law school to increase my thinking power but today I felt unable to expend any brain activity and just coasted along, fixing and re-researching my prior decisions to make sure they were perfect, unable to move ahead. I am in my mid-thirties and desire intense, satisfying workouts and I ended up hurt and frustrated.
Today is one of those days when I have no idea how well I'm doing.
1 comment:
What about running. It is the most satisfying, intense work out I know. Remember we used to go for runs?
Don't worry, we all have those off days! You'll probably have more affirming days soon.
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